On the discomfort after waking up

After awakening, the hardest part for me

was the change in frequency.

I'm used to an exchange of energy built on sincerity. But most conversations in business, and over business dinners, still circle around power, profit, comparison, control, vanity and appearances.

That intense discomfort spread from my body to my soul,

and all I could do was try to keep my breathing steady.

Why does everyone keep repeating words with no life in them? Why all the flattery, the calculating, the performing,

while no one is truly present?

I see it clearly, and I can no longer force myself to play along.